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Age: 15- 43
Birthday: July 28, 1967
Height: 161 cm (5'3'')
Hair: Curtained,Orange,Parted to Side, Short,Spiky Bangs
Hobbies: collecting cute things, obsessing over cute things, treasure hunting,club games
Eyes: Blue, Tareme sometimes cat-eyes
Personality: Airhead, Friendly, Kind,Loyal, Serious, Smart, Oddball, Watashi Type, Yangire
Subject of Death, Delusion, Selfharm, Hospitalization, Paranoia, Psychological Trauma, PSTD, Violence, Rape Attempt, Teasing, Torture, Insanity, Time Loop, Viral Infection, Hinamizawa Syndrome Aliases: nata onna, (Cleaver Girl), cute mode
"I wonder, how much effort does it take to make a person happy? Unhappiness, I believe, is like a spiraling series of events. Once you get into it, it’s very difficult to get out. To escape its grasp, truly takes ones best efforts to the point where people think you’ve gone too far. Yet, eventually, you are able to take control. Isn’t that happiness?!
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I removed the “i” in my name to remove the “icky” things from my life…
I just noticed in higurashi, rena is a girl full of anxiety who blames herself for the divorce of her parents and everything bad following. after returning to hinamizawa then she changes herself to the better, even changing her name. she then holds onto her new found happiness more than anything. - this is pretty much what I did too. but without higurashi I would most likely have given up and ….I wouldn’t even be alive anymore then, I think…. higurashi did not only take my fears away about sharp items, especially cleavers and my violent intrusive thoughts, and made me able to finally like myself even with such thoughts, but it also changed my whole life. in fact that said fears of sharp objects became the complete opposite, hell, later in 2012-2015 I was even part of a shin-kendo and iaido club.
without love it cannot be seen.
Now as for umineko: that once again changed my life to the better too this year, as I found true love via an umineko themed discord server, I love my bf @kurokixbatora and I’m the happiest with him. The interesting part on the whole thing for myself is pretty much that I didn’t even look for love anymore, and umineko is a story about love. and here I found true love. my bf and me are sure we’re miracles for each other because we’re so perfect together. which is also so ironic, because bern and rena are my bf’s waifus, while black battler is my husbando. needless to say that in dedication to this miracle I will cosplay bernkastel sometimes soon.
anyway long story. short: higurashi and umineko, didn’t only change my life to the better and have so much positive effects only on myself. I saw several others with such experiences and this is sooooo wonderful. I wonder if even RGD or higanbana have that effect sometimes too? In any case, I always said and meant it from the bottom of my heart, Higurashi and Umineko is my life, I will live with it and die with it.
