→  NO ONE CAN JUDGE ME!

_{The cicadas sound so comforting and calm.I look down at the two remains before me. I can’t help but smile weakly. I know that was the best option I had left. Because I’ve done so much to regain my happiness. I tried everything but Oyashiro-sama’s curse did leave me no chance to settle things in a different way. It’s not my fault that it came to this.Those people were bad. They were my “enemies” and yet I’m feeling kinda exhausted and sad. Why do I feel that way? is it because I killed them? I’m trash, aren’t I? Aha ha ha ha ha, How fitting I love this place so much. I truly belong here to this junkyard.}

_{Trash doesn’t feels anything, right? Then I too, shouldn’t feel anything about my crime. but I do. Why? Is it because I dismembered them each into 6 pieces? Is it because I’m going to carry each piece in my backpack and try to bury them deep in the mountains? Or is it because I’m going to hide them and act as if nothing ever happened. No, I shouldn’t think that. This is nothing special. Dismembering them was easy to do, it was like cooking, like gutting a fish. Even cutting off their heads, arms and legs was nothing special. Would you ever keep the guts of your favorite meal to eat them? No you wouldn’t. Cutting those two bodies into pieces was easy. Almost too easy. Now, when I look down at those pieces of human flesh, I can tell I did a really great job in mutilating them. But sadly no one will praise me for it..}

_{I may had some trouble cutting their torsos. I had to use all my muscles to make that work and I’m still not sure how I’m going to carry those two pieces but I will find a way1. What I did is without a doubt a terrible crime. but at the same time, it’s what bad people deserve;no? I don’t feel any regret. Actually, I would feel more sad by hunting and killing a cattle. It would die without having done anything wrong and without any chance to fight back. It wouldn’t be my enemy unlike them…}

_{But those two yakuzas wannabes were my “enemies”. They were really bad people that tried to destroy my happiness and they were a lot stronger than me. So In fact I feel relieve. it’s like I finished my favorite meal and now I can smile happily at my dish! Yes I’m going to bare that feeling of regained happiness.. In order to be free and stretch out my wings like a bird.. Oh I can feel it, I’m flying through the sky freely.. I’m finally free from all that tension and curse. Even though, I have blood on my hands. I’m sure would people know about this , they would be disgusted and hate me for it…}

_{They would judge me for the decision I made but I don’t care. Killing them was the only choice I had left to regain my happiness. Those , who judge me have no Idea what I went through. They’re hypocrites, feeling disgusted for the crime I’ve done, when in fact they don’t even know me and how much I suffered. Or even worse, they know me but did nothing to try and help me. But can I really think so? Back then, when Satoshi-kun was seeking for help, I did nothing. I only made him feel worse. Now that I came so far, I finally understand why Satoshi-kun killed his aunt. He suffered the same way. He had no one to help him. Just like me. I tried to get Kasai-san’s help but I didn’t have luck with that.}

“Heh….._{So I may can’t ignore the fact that I’m a murderer, and that I was just like those hypocrites. I can’t fix the mistakes I made in the past, I can’t help Satoshi-kun anymore. BUT NO ONE HAS A RIGHT TO JUDGE ME!  Because I did everything for my happiness. I did everything to save my family. Besides, if no one knows about this, they can’t judge me right?? The blood and smell on me will come off soon. I’ll be the usual happy Rena again. I’ll take a shower and that sin in my heart will disappear. It’ll disappear as if it never happened in the first place..} 

_{As I think so, I look up at the sky. Noticing it’s becoming darker. Rolling gray clouds can be seen over Hinamizawa and I hear a loud rumbling noise. I guess it starts to rain very soon. I feel like the sky has taken notice of my feelings and the rain is my friend to get rid of that icky liquid. Aaaaaw, now when I think about it, that rain was always there to protect me.  Wasn’t it?? I wonder would it had started to rain earlier, would it had come to this?? I stretch out both of my arms like a bird before it flies off. I can’t fly. But right now, I feel like I can. I smile wryly. I welcome the warm raindrops as it washes away all the blood on my black clothing and from the tools that I used to dismember the bodies. The rain is washing all of that disgusting blood into the ground bellow. The rain is heavy and at this rate, I’m sure the blood disappears like it was never there. Right Oyashiro-sama? I knew it, THE CURSE HAS ENDED NOW!}

_{I finally drop the hatchet and the saw in my bloody-gloved hands. I’m glad I chose these weapons to cut the bodies, I didn’t need to go home to get another tool. I didn’t need to look at the sad face of my father and smile at him reassuring like nothing would be wrong. I watch the rain falling down washing away all the blood on me. Washing away all the emptiness.. I’m truly happy now. Aren’t I?}

_{I’m not letting go of that happiness ever again. I’m going to bury these 12 bags with pieces in the mountains of Hinamizawa and with that I bury the unhappy parts of my Life once and for all…}

_{No one needs to know about it….}

_{I can finally start over! This happiness is mine and I won’t give it away again.
Tomorrow, I’ll laugh as usual and I have a lot of fun at Mii-chan’s club activity. This is when my work will pay off! I only have to make sure no one will find the mutilated  bodies.}